Gifts of The Spirit

The gift of the word of wisdom, the gift of the word of knowledge, the gift of faith, the gift of healing, the gift of doing miracles, the gift of prophecy or speaking Yah's words, the gift of discernment of spirits, the gift of different languages, both the speaking and interpretation. Acts 2:1-47, 1 Corinthians 12:1 -14:40, 1 Peter 4:10-11, Romans 12:1-21, Isaiah 11:1-3, 1 Timothy 4:14-16, Hebrews 2:4, Mark 16:17 is where we read about the Gifts of The Spirit. These verses cover what the Gifts are, how you receive a Gift, structure for using the Gifts in an assembly, purpose for the Gifts, and warnings and assurances about the Gifts. Yet, I still have questions. 

First question: why don't we see believers in Messiah operating in these gifts in mass currently? A internet search says there are 2.38 billion Christians in the world. That's a lot of believers. So why aren't we seeing folks healing like Peter and Paul did? Why is there so little words of wisdom and knowledge being shared? Why? Some people teach that we are no longer in a time for the Gifts to be in effect, but I don't see that in my Bible. So why? 

Second question: why do I find so few teaching on these gifts in the Christian Torah pursuant community? Passion for Truth and Rise on Fire Ministries are the only two I have found so far, that touch on the gifts. 

The gift of tongues or languages is a tough one for me to understand. When I read the scriptures in Acts regarding the gift of languages I see that people were hearing the message in their own language when it was spoken in a language different than their own, a language that is spoken somewhere on earth. The "heavenly language" or "prayer language" people speak about doesn't compute with me. I simply don't get it. I have always considered Hebrew to the the language of creation, therefore the language spoken in heaven. For me to utter sounds I don't understand makes me uncomfortable since Matthew 12:36 warns us that we are accountable for our words. How can I answer for words I don't understand? I'm open to explanations on this. Also, I attended a charismatic church for a few years and witnessed people clearly faking this gift. It was about getting attention for themselves, no one was edified. Now if I suddenly testified in Thai to my Thai neighbor, that I could clearly see the gift of languages operating and edifying. As I write this I think perhaps I have the gift of discernment. 

I would love to receive the gift of healing. I'd clean out a hospital. No broadcasting, just go around touching and praying in the name of Yahusha, watching the wake of joy behind me. This is one gift that can only be given to the most humble of believers, so that probably eliminates me. To shine the light on oneself, and accept laudation could be a major temptation. 

I definitely want more knowledge on this subject, and am open to hear something outside of my currently understanding. 

A work in progress 

Teresa