But Why?

 

You know that kid, the one who always has "Why?" on the tip of their tongue? I think I might be that kid.  I realize I have a "Teresa" perspective, I'm trying to make sense of the information,  and therefore, I question much. 

I question what the teacher presents, not to be contentious,  but to gain more understanding. As a Bible student in church, I moved from sitting in front with my hand raised to sitting in the back just observing.  I was not getting answers that actually answered. With enough of that, the teacher and student become frustrated, for far different reasons.  I learned to repeat the Church doctrine, being reassured I would understand with time... Yeah, not so much. 

I could easily read my Bible, seemed pretty straightforward to me. But why didn't we as Christians do what it says? It says to do this, but we do that. But why? Sometimes the response was a Bible verse...ok. I guess I don't see what I'm supposed to.  For instance: 

Question: The Bible says the 7th day, each week, is a Holy Sabbath, set apart to Yah. So why do we not meet at church on Saturday? Why is it Sunday?

Answer: Sunday is the Lord's Day- it's the day Jesus/Yahusha resurrected. Jesus is your Sabbath rest. You are no longer required to keep a specific day as Holy. 

 Question: Ok, but where does the Bible say to do that? 

Answer: it doesn't 

Question: Why do we celebrate Christmas and not the Holy Days Yah said are His Holy Days? 

Answer: Those old testament Holy Days are only for the Jews, Christians have their own holidays. 

Question: but why? Where does the Bible say that? 

Answer: it doesn't, but not one should judge you for what days you celebrate.

Question: why do Christians eat pork when the Bible definitely says not to, it says pork is not food? ( neither is shellfish,  rodents, reptiles, birds of prey- not everything was designed to be fuel for your body) 

Answer: Jesus made all food clean. Peter's dream says we can eat anything.  You can eat anything as long as you thank God for it.

Question: Which Bible verse says Jesus changed what is not food into food? Didn't Peter himself determine that his dream was about people,  not food? I need more proof.

Answer: ummmmm, I'll get back to you.  

That's just a sample.  I could go on, and on. Many times the "church fathers" would be invoked and quoted. No offense to those guys, but really I gotta understand this on my own. Those "church fathers" aren't going to stand with me on judgement day. "It's the way we were raised" is also a common response to my questions.  Sorry that's not an acceptable answer either.  One must not rely on a rehearsed quote you don't understand,  ask questions.  

One good christian man recently remarked, "some laws didn't transfer over"...what? Look all of Yah's laws still stand, for the natural born and the foreigner (adopted/grafted-in) alike. One family of Yah, one Kingdom of Yah, one law. Because there is no temple, no Yah accepted alter, and no Levitical priesthood some of Yah's laws sit on the books, not applicable right now. Some laws are only for men, some only for women,  some only for the Levitical priests, so forth and so on. The laws are still there, they just don't all apply right now.  Just like US laws for selling raw milk don't apply to me, I don't even own a cow.  

I also must address the fact that Judiasm now and in Jesus/Yahusha’s day believe Moses was given an Oral law along with the written law Yah gave him. This is called Talmudic law.  Adding burdens on the people. Those are the "laws" the Pharisees  were hasseling Jesus/Yahusha about. He knew the Torah, He IS the Torah. Ha Satan has done a bang up job causing confusion regarding this Torah of Yah. So much adding to and taking away(Deuteronomy 4:2, Proverbs 30:6, Revelation)

I start from the premise that YHVH is the same yesterday,  today, and forever,  He never changes. The word obedience is preached from a multitude of pulpits each Sunday. Obedient to what? How about obedience to the Whole Word of Yah? Do all that you can right now. Why? Because He said "if you love me,  keep my commandments". That's why. 

Still a work in progress 

Teresa

A Birds Eye View

 

I often wonder about my place in The Kingdom of Yahuah.  Sometimes, it's a season of time that I dwell on the subject. I can be very hard on myself.  What have I accomplished? Have I made a difference? Even for one person. Have my flaws out shined my positives? I wish I could run into so-n-so that I could apologize for my really bad behavior way back in the day. My mind can run on and on. 

There are so many people who have come in and out of my life. Some for a short time, some for a while. And I wish I could say I  have no regrets, but I can't.  Really at the end of it all, being a positive for whomever crosses my path, a light, a sign pointing to Yahusha, is my goal. But it wasn't always so.  And it's during those moments where "it wasn't always so" that I have sorrow and remorse.  How I long to see Michaela again, so I can ask her forgiveness.  I want to speak with Lisa, and apologize for not doing more to help her. But I can't find them. If you're reading this and I  wronged you,  please give me a chance to seek your forgiveness.  

Once in a while Yah allows someone from the past to find me. And so far, when someone finds me, it's been to express that I left a good and helpful deposit in their life. What a beautiful gift. I rejoice in it. I'm so thankful.  And I was surprised.  Yes, I didn't think they were listening,  or watching,  but they were.  Seems like it takes a birds eye view of one's life to see where you made a difference.  

For years I was just trying to hang on, when I look back I see no "work for the Kingdom". Then Yah showed me I was developing a strong foundational faith. I may have been barely hanging on, but He had a firm grip on me. Where I see I failed my children,  Yah has brought them up to be wonderful people,  strong competent men. In spite of or because of, I may never know,  but Yah blessed them.

One day we will all get that birds eye view of how our lives, words, and deeds affected others, for good or bad. All of us will have some regretful moments. All Glory to Yah that can even use our shameful unChristlike past to further His Kingdom.

One day you will be a memory,  be a good one.

Still a work in progress 

Teresa

Why It Matters

 

My last blog post was about all the grievous sin running rampant across the earth. I wrote about revealing the sin, acknowledging it is happening, looking that horrific darkness in the face.  And now let's discuss why it matters. 

We know from Genesis and the story of Cain and Able, that the blood of the innocent who have been slain cries out to the Most High. And He hears them. These cries are for justice. We are reminded of this in the Book of Revelation when the blood of the saints who are killed for their testimony cry out for justice. "How Long Adoni?" Ezekiel 9:4 gives the example of men being marked by The Most High because they were grieved by the abominations that were occurring around them. The marked men were a righteous remnant.  I want to be marked by Yah as His own, and to be counted in the remnant of the righteous.  

Let our voices join with the cries of the slain innocent. Let our hearts be grieved over the abominations happening around us. Let our eyes be opened to the evil hiding in plain sight. Let our King come back and set things right. I do not relish to see what happens when He does come back, but I know it's necessary. 

A work in progress 

Teresa 

Come Quickly Yahusha

 

A few years ago I began praying that all the evil and corruption across the earth be revealed. Many others were praying this same thing, and lo and behold the ugliness is being laid bare, exposed. The depths of depravity of which humans are capable is hard to understand, it's hard to face. 

Over the years I've heard folks say, "oh things have to get much worse before Jesus comes back."  Upon hearing that statement, I would shake my head. It's doubtful that we, as mere humans, can get an accounting of how much evil, wickedness,  and sin is in this world, as we know, sin starts with a thought. But our Heavenly Father knows.  He is slow to send Yahusha back because he is merciful.  Just like the question presented by Abraham when Sodom was targeted for destruction by Yahuah, "What if there are 10 righteous people there? Will you spare it for 10 people?".  Me, and others like me are still fervently praying for our loved ones to come to the knowledge and acceptance of the gift of Salvation. 

There is so much I just don't understand about Yah and His ways. And normally I can easily put an unanswered question on the back burner, resting in the knowledge that Yah is in control, He has plans to benefit us, He gave His only begotten Son so that we would be redeemed back to him.  Good wins over evil. Yet when I am exposed to the information about the rampant evil and sin, well, it just sickens me. The stories of the sins committed against the innocent haunt me. So much so, that  praying for the immediate return of Yahusha is first on my lips. 

Genocide.  Human trafficking for sex, labor, and organ harvesting, believe it or not, for human sacrifice as well- humans from new born up. People from 11 years old to 60 are conscripted into the Ukraine meat grinder against their will. Our government has been behind millions of innocent deaths in our conquests around the world. Why do we accept the idea of collateral damage =deaths of the innocent civilians? In Gaza, none of them are considered civilians,  ALL are seen as enemy combatants- women, children,  elderly,  handicapped- ALL. Above that, why are we forcing our will on everyone everywhere? Each time a US dollar is used for a death, the US is responsible.  Stop funding the wars and death. How about abortion? Those numbers are astonishing. How about modern "medicine"? Yeah, there are some beneficial things, I don't deny it, but!!!!! We've been poisoned by pharma and the food industry all for a profit for the shareholders.  

I will put links to some recent videos and articles that expose deep dark sins against the innocent.  You will need to copy and paste in the search bar. It is with a heavy heart I share these videos, warning: it's horrific.  I've been stewing about this for a while,  trying to get those thoughts and visuals out of my mind. But I can't.  We cannot continue to put our heads in the sand.  We need to look at it and stand against it. Come Quickly King Yahusha.

https://youtu.be/QRjEMbHXM4Q?si=pdA-j_xe01S9TN3r

https://youtu.be/2sj0dIOeHbo?si=2uAfyJ_Yl8AmwrqD

https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2025/08/hhs-secretary-rfk-jr-vows-end-horror-story/

https://youtu.be/aLqVUa-0KuU?si=ottY6yJDct0G0PpX

https://youtu.be/3lcLQqUapYo?si=Ga_-mKjaoLWNzSzu

https://youtu.be/axT37P_oz1k?si=FpZYG4ypvSb6eO6u

https://www.pewresearch.org/short-reads/2024/03/25/what-the-data-says-about-abortion-in-the-us/

Still a work in progress 

Teresa