That Very Moment

 

Do you remember the very moment you were "saved", or made the decision for Yahusha? I have heard many folks give their testimony, powerful, emotional, detailed stories of that very moment. Not me. I remember believing from a young age, playing and making up songs to sing to Jesus. I have a memory of walking to my friend's house and singing at the top of my lungs when I noticed a grownup watching me with a big smile on her face. But I couldn't put my finger on a memory of that very moment of salvation.

I can recall moments of real repentance and returning to the path over the years. I have several memories of interactions with the presence of Yah, or the Holy Spirit. For instance, when I was pregnant with my oldest son I received a vision. I hadn't been walking closely with Jesus(Yahusha). I was going my own way, and not making the greatest decisions. But one night as I was laying down to sleep, I was suddenly in my childhood bedroom. I was above the bed looking down, I saw myself, 2nd grader, saying my prayers. I was nervous about the multiplication test the next day. I had no confidence that I could pass. So I prayed, " please help me pass the test, and I will raise my babies in church when I grow up".  The very next day I went to the local Methodist Church and enrolled in their class for new people. Methodist was my mom's church, it's what I knew. Oh, by the way, I did pass that multiplication test. I don't think Yah is about making bargains, but it seems He was holding me to that childhood pledge. 

As I have been thinking about salvation stories, and not being able to pinpoint mine, Yah once again gave me a vision. As I'm laying down to sleep, saying my prayers, I was suddenly in the First Church Of God in Cushing Oklahoma, upstairs in "children's church".  I'm in my little girl body, and I can see my feet. They are dangling from my seat on that hard wooden pew. I hear Betty Tubbs leading us in prayer, piano playing softly.  I hear myself asking Jesus into my heart.  Yah took me back there, to show me that very moment. I understood that I was being shown the innocence and sincerity of that very moment. Yah has been faithful to never leave me, nor forsake me. He has faithfully lead me along this life journey teaching me, forming me, refining me, and strengthening my faith. I'm very thankful for this recent vision. Sweet, and comforting. 

Still a work in progress 

Teresa

PHOTO: my brother and I