I am so thankful for the paid days off I had at the end of the year. I got the chance to clean my house thoroughly. I threw away a large green trash bag, of old clothes and gift wrapping mostly, and cleared out a closet. Heck, if I haven't used or needed these things in the last say...3+ years since I placed them there, then I don't need them. Out it goes. I have a natural tendency to be a hoarder.
My Granny, Bless her heart, was a hoarder of sorts. She never threw anything out. It was kinda cool, for instance she had all kinds of weird, old things stashed away in drawers, shelves, and cabinets. Everything had a story too. And some things, she had forgotten it's story, but it was cool anyhow. I have many of her things, mixing bowls, rolling pin, saucers, serving plate, knives, knife sharpener, pliers, scales, sweaters, art, sewing machine, jewelry, and I'm sure there are other things that haven't come to mind. I keep these things because they were hers. I use them because I connect with her when I do. She taught me unconditional love. She was so special to me. It is good to hold on to some things. I wonder if my children or grandchildren will want to connect with me in that way.
As I contemplate these sentimental notions I look within to see what I need to clear out of me, myself. Perhaps I can see something to hold on to as well. I know right off that withholding forgiveness is an issue with me. I also know from experience that praying for someone is one sure fire way of getting to that place of letting go and resting in pure forgiveness. I mean concentrated committed routinely praying for them. Pray for their health, their success, their relationships, or sometimes just for blessings over them. Then I can have peace, Lord knows I want peace. So, I am praying.
Ok, what to hold on to? Hold on to the wisdom I have gained over these years of seeking YHVH/Yeshua. I know full well that I must freely forgive. I will freely receive as I freely give. Why must I try to self protect? Oh, yeah, I know that too. Lack of faith. Faith without works is dead. Do it, not just "believe" it. Ya is so faithful to be patient with me. To know something in your head, repeat the verses with your lips is one thing. To live it out because it is spoken from your heart, through your body, your being, that is quite another. THAT IS THE GOAL.
Working on it. Still haven't gotten on the elliptical machine, but hey, progress is progress. TTFN
